If you have followed Zac's story, you know that daddy was his favorite from day one. I can proudly say that our little cutie loves his momma now too but daddy still has an extra special place in his heart. I don't even know how to begin to share how much Justin adores Zachary. It's beautiful and miraculous and it makes my heart tighten with emotion to think about Justin's personal adoption journey. I often hear similar stories from people...mom wants to adopt, dad is not so sure, mom prays, dad gives the green light and falls head over heels in love, becoming an even bigger supporter of adoption than his wife! He finds out that God provides, there is great blessing in taking a risk, and YES he can love an adopted child just as much as a biological one (I've heard that one a lot)! These are all concerns I have heard specifically from dads and I love love love seeing how God gently leads and moves on behalf of his children.
The reason this is on my heart tonight is because of a story Justin just told me. He said around 3am last night Zachary came to our bed and didn't just crawl in but wedged his way under Justin's arm so he could be as close as possible to his daddy. I never even knew he was there because he was snuggled up so tight to Justin. Justin said he became overwhelmed with the thought that there are so many little ones who don't have a daddy or mommy's arm to snuggle up under. Our son has a family now and the thought of him not having someone (us!) to adore him it too much to take in. Zachary was one of millions of amazing children who need families. (Seriously, the child is amazing. =)
Justin's story really brought me back to the place where God wrecked me a few years ago...the reason I longed to adopt. There are close to 147 MILLION orphans and we can love one. That's it. That's where it began for me. I have shared before that I did not feel like I "needed" another child. I was perfectly content with our family just the way it was. But when I found myself weeping over the mere thought of a child without a mommy I knew my comfortable, content existence was not where I was supposed to stay. I feel so strongly that our own comfort is our worst enemy if we allow it to take precedence over what Jesus clearly calls his followers to do...LOVE others. Maybe we won't have the picture perfect life (some dreams will be let go and replaced with others). Maybe my biological children will struggle with adding a new family member (in our case his name may or may not start with an "A" =). Maybe it will cost me something I didn't think I wanted to give (to find out more every day that it was worth it all). But we have arms that a sweet little boy from Taiwan whose picture we saw on a "waiting child" listing can crawl under and find a safe place where he will always be loved. I pray we will always use our arms to hold and love children. They are so precious to their Father.